sugared

i'm unsure
but the chew of the bottle
the gummy bounce pull
the cola chew kindess that uncovers the wool

feels nice
to play in the pick and mix
with his unattainable words
complexity desired
could be
shouldn't be
bitten away by senescence

kindness sincere
whole as a sugar jellied ring
placed on juvenile fingers

but also lacking an animosity desired
through the push and pull of a father never wanting
needing
only loving
through saccharine grand gestures

a packet of sweets after the rain
always feels electric

but saving one per day
might just keep
(my sellotaped door unsure)
nightmares
away