intertia

if he could remain consistent in anything
it was absence

and consistency in anything
in a way

is soothing

i don't wish co-regulated avoidance on myself anymore
so please
if anything
don't pull me back into ambiguity

it may be painted safer there for you
but i see through its canvas

and with no picture for me to draw
in a way

all i can see is clarity
comforting clarity